Sorry.

Im so tired of entertaining u.. for the past 2 yrs.. its been like this.. im so freaking sick and tired.. i feel so stress being wif u.. so pressurized.. i cant breathe.. i really hope u will let mi go........ i juz wanna do the things i wan... i dun wanna be controlled... im sorry........

-20.10.2004 11.05pm-

Reservoir.

Wooo~ didnt know there was this nice place in Khatib.. always pass by it when going sch.. never had the chance to check it out.

Anyway.. it was call the Lower Seletar Reservoir if i didnt see wrongly. Its a peaceful place.. with people fishing and hanging out... the water was calm and the lights from the opposite golf course makes the whole place so pretty. Next time go there fish~ yay. =D

And i tink i look weird in bermudas. -.- LOL. But still it feels.. COOL. muahahaha..

-Next time no need go MacRitchie already, hohoho-

Its Sunday.

Its Sunday.. again. Usually i feel happy on Sundays.. cuz.. i can go to sch next day.. sch's a nice place to be.. except for the assignments part.. and.. i get to see.. pple.

But.. today.. i feel kinda sad.. cuz.. i've made pple feel sad.. and disappointed.. i feel dreadful... disappointment is the lousiest feeling anybody could ever had. I hope you're ok..

SO many things on my mind.. dat i cant bring myself to say out.. so many feelings that words cant describe... so many things i wanna do with you.. but unable to... Sorry.

I Want.

Where is my tiramisu~~~~~~
Where is my soft toy pig~~~~
Where is my freshly made orange juice~~~
Where is everything~~~~~
Gimme gimme gimme~~~

Nothing to write actually... juz an other happy day~ =D

I feel.

You asked mi.. "always come out with me, not sian ar?"
The answer is no... cuz.. i know.. you are someone who i can really talk to.. somebody who can make mi smile.. Juz looking at the sparkle in ur eye makes mi happy. So.. pls stay happy ok.. so the sparkle will always be there.

I dunno if you enjoy spending time wif mi.. but juz wanna tell u that i do. I feel so.. relax and safe with you around. You always make mi laugh even though u tink that you are not a good joker.

I know you do care for mi.. I really appreciates it. Although we used to have unhappy times before.. but mi dun blame u ya? I understand why u react that way.

If i can make a wish.. i wish that time stops here. A moment where we can stay happy forever.

Evening Walk.

Went to the esplanade yesterday evening.. took the train to Raffles and decide to walk from there.. hmm.. it was funny... cuz saw many couples taking wedding photos.. wads wif the date yesterday? but it's nice.. the bride and groom look nice.. nice feeling.. pretty dress.

Hmm.. talked about alot of things.. I know things are going to be different within another 6 months... pple will leave.. life will be different.. pple will be different.. how i wished.. things remain the same like now.. but.. i wan everybody to be happy.. ya..

Anyway... i hope we still have the chance to take the river ride.. and eat the fondue at the chocolate bar.. and not forgetting my Honey Malt ice cream at the Gelare. Hope i still get to do all these stuff wif u.. I know i trouble u wif alot of things.. and make u unhappy and stuff.. really dun meant it ok... sorry.. i know u dun wanna hear sorry.. but sorry is the only thing i can say.. sorry for the dumb me.

Chocolate.

Fragile seems
I opened up too quick and all my dreams
Were walking out I'd slowly
Lost my fire
With every single man a river cried
I had no sensation
Completely numb, left with no satisfaction
I thought no-one could ever get me high again
I swear, I was not looking


Oh, waited so long
I thought the real thing was a fake
I thought it was a tool to break me down
You proved me wrong again


If love were liquid it would drown me
In a placeless place would find me
In a heart shape come around me and then
Melt me slowly down
If love were human it would know me
In a lost space come and show me
Hold me and control me and then
Melt me slowly down
Like chocolate


Tastes so good
My heart's been mended who'd have thought it would
An empty bet and still I won the cash
A man who I love and who
Loves me back
Oh, waited so long
For love to heal me so I'd feel it
Thought it wasn't breathing then you came
You proved me wrong again


Like chocolate come here
Zoom in, catch the smile
There's no doubt it's from you
And I'm addicted to it now
Just one look boy to melt me down
Just one heart here to save me now
Your candy kisses are sweet I know
Hold me tight baby don't let go
Just one look boy to melt me down
Just one heart here to save me now
Your candy kisses are sweet I know
Hold me tight baby don't let go.

YAWNZ~ I WAN MY BED~!

ARGH~ i wan my BED. GODAMNIT. Im so tired~! Dark Circles come out liaoz~~~~~ so UGLY~! OMG.

Went Orchard today, bought something for somebody... cant say out now.. heheh~~ And then went shopping wif wati... WAH~ once we shop we canot stop~! so many things i wanna buy!!!!

1. Watch
2. Converse Hand Bag
3. Converse Shoes
4. Watch Cool Guy
5. Skirt
6. Top
7. T-shirts
8. Esprit Sweater

Omg. how sia. sighz. waste money. =(


-Sorry for no tagboard, no time put-

Ache.

I feel so sad. Extremely sad. I wonder if u really feel the same. Maybe cuz of the stupid thing i did today? Which make things turn out the way it is now. If i have a choice, i wish i didnt do it. but... I do it cuz i wanted to... When ever i see u stressing out on ur project.. i feel so helpless.. dunno wad to say, dun even know whether i should say anything. I thought the next best thing i can do is accompany you. But i guess im wrong....

So weird that good intentions turn out bad... simple things become complicated ones.. I juz feel so heartbroken. Sorry for everything.

When I think back

On these times

And the dreams

We left behind

I'll be glad 'cause

I was blessed to get

To have you in my life

When I look back

On these days I'll look and see your face

You are there for me

In my dreams

I'll always see you soar

Above the sky In my heart

There always be a place

For you for all my life

I'll keep a part Of you with me

And everywhere I am

There you'll be

Well you showed me How it feels

To feel the sky

Within my reach

And I always

Will remember all

The strength you Gave to me

Your love made me Make it through

Oh, I owe so much to you

You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you My light, my strength

And I want to thank you

Now for all the ways

You were right there for me

You were right there for me

For always

Faith Hill

-There You'll Be-

Today~

Im feeling happy today. I went out in the afternoon.. actually planned to study jap in the library.. but.. yeah.. as usual. hahaha. Went to taka, cuz somebody wanna eat the vege crisp... lol~ and had ice cream today.. yay~ again~! tried the Crunchy Mania.....wooo.. not bad.. heh.

After dat walk to tanglin mall.. and the Toy R' Us juz simply attracts mi... i had to go in~ lol~ dunno y.. haahah.. anyway.. it was fun. We came across some toy machines.. and decided to try our luck~~ actually i REALLY REALLY wanted the chip munks, but.. oh well.. tried 2 times but still no luck.. only one of the 7 dwarfs and a dalmatian.. hahaah.. not bad lahz~~ better den nothing~~ the dalmatian was cute.. dwarf so ugly.. =X oops.

Saw alot of things today~ was really fun. Looking forward to the next outing. =D

-MacRitchie MacRitchie MacRitchie MacRitchie-